Back to Forgiveness

It's hard to avoid replaying any part of this process, especially when you don't perform as well as you know you can.

I was in an interview last week that went very well, until it didn't.

This was a second round interview.  I felt really good about the position and confident in the value I would bring to the organization.  The felt the chemistry between the interviewer and me was excellent.  And at the very end of the meeting we moved from interview (very much share and tell) into a mock counseling session (very much ask and listen).  I know how to counsel and stay in inquiry.  I acted not as I normally would, but rather with a knee-jerk reaction to the 10 minutes I had to demonstrate what I know versus how I would behave in a counseling situation.  I don't know yet whether I blew it completely, but I know I could have given a much better demonstration of my counseling skills.  I left the interview annoyed at myself and kept replaying the situation in my mind, very clear on what I would do differently if given the chance.

Will it kill my chances for a call back?  Hopefully the rest of what I presented during the 90 minutes of conversation prior to the 10 minute whirlwind mock session will outweigh my mistake.  Hopefully the interviewer will give me the benefit of the doubt based on my background and experience.  If not, I learned what to say or do differently next time.

In this process, as with most of life, one can only learn from mistakes and move forward.  So, I have to forgive myself and let go.  I have to remind myself about my many skills and talents and the value I know I will bring to the next organization that is lucky enough to hire me, and move on.

Based on what I recently wrote about assumptions, I won't know if I'm in or out until I hear from them.  I'll let you know how this one plays out.